Looking Forward - Time to Step Up

Finally, there is less drama in our little family!  I think now we can honestly all move forward.  Onwards and upwards.  2012 has been a tough year for us, and even though it is not yet over, I believe the worst is behind us.

But now it is time to re-focus and look ahead.  More than just the next couple of hours or days, which what life has been like for the past 8 months.

I think now that I (we) are finally through the worst of things, the adrenalin has worn off, and I am tired.  Really Tired.

I feel completely overwhelmed by the disarray my house has fallen into.  It is going to take time to clean it up and re-organise things.  I know once I do this, I will start to feel better.   So many things I want to do, just need to do them in small steps.  I know I can do it, but like anything, it will not all happen in one day.

It's time to re-focus on the family health as a whole.  We all need some fun times, times we can share and grow in together.  For me, I have started by walking again, with the aim of being able to run 10km by the end of the year.  Yes, 10Km!  M1 wants to come with me.  Soon I will invite him to come with me, but for now I need the time just for me.

Life is nothing without some goals - my goal is to get back to me.


So THANK YOU to everyone who has helped us through the year that has been.  Without you, I am not sure I would still be standing.  

Here is to the next chapter in our little life.

 

Now breathe ............

This month, our house has been a rocky and turbulent place to be.  We are all a bit tired.  And we are all finally learning to breathe again.  Small baby steps.  One day at a time.

The OPERATION is now over. He was kept sedated and on a ventilator for 30+ hours, due to post op complications.  Thank God he pulled through.  He is ok, and improving daily.  His heart is now "fixed" - mostly.  Still one more procedure to go.  It "broke" because it had so much love in it that it burst - well, not really, but that is what I told our 4 year old daughter.  How else do you explain it to a four year old? It was very stressful, for all of us.  I  have been be scared, and worried, stressed, tired, teary, happy and sad.  Sometimes all at once. 

But now we are all starting to improve.  There will be more "speed bumps" along the way.  I keep trying to remember what my mum says Be gentle with each other.  What wise words.

Thank you to all of you who have helped me through this time.  I have been overwhelmed at the amount of kindness showered on this family.  I could not have got through this without you and I will never be able to thank you enough.